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❝ Vulnerability is so fucking scary. But here's a start. Say it loud and proud.
( posted on Monday, May 5, 2025 @ 7:48 AM )
Dear Farah Elina, How did you went from being strong positive person to a sobby person right now in the matter of hours? To the tomorrow farah elina, maybe you should take it a tab bit slow with the drinking. We are currently 2 glass in. How did we get so fucking light weight? Oh ya, we kinda stopped for a while. I know exactly what you're doing. You're afraid of your own feelings. It's okay to be weak. It's alright. LEt me (28 yo farah) hold you (16 year old farah). I know you just want warmth. JAngan engkau nangis (joes playing this song lol) 28 year old farah, you really gotta work on your self esteem. You are constantly self-sabotaging, just because you think you're not good enough. You abandon yourself and everything you worked for, because you think you're not worthy of it. You run before everyone leaves. Because in your mind, thats what everyone does. I see you scared and it's alright. ITs all alright and okay.......... You will be okay. REminding you of your previous post. Stay strong. Your loved one needs you most right now. BE strong. Stand tall. Chin up. I hope you see this pattern and work on it with your therapist. Time for change, sayang. Be sad, cry, hold yourself. Get the fuckkkk up. You have one hour. That's all we're allowed. And then we move forward. Alright? REmember to be the change you want in this world. IT doesn't have to be all broken and damanged. Be the light. I know you will. He needs you now. More than ever. Listen, the world is not out here to get you. In fact, the universe is neutral. It's here co-existing with you. Observing you. Watching. Every single spec of thing , down to the cells, is running it's own course, fulfilling its purpose. What is yours, farah? The universe it neither wishing harm on you or rooting for you. Here's a perspective for you, take charge. RUN YOUR FUCKING COURSE, BITCH. And then watch. Watch how the flowers bloom for you. Even then the rain pours, it waters and give live. Letting you know, the world as what you make it to be. Remember that. Always.
❝ Today's thoughts
( posted on @ 5:24 AM )
I am not a victim I will take charge of my life Life is what I want it to be I shall be the best For me, for Joe This is what we deserve The best version of me To show up Even in defeat I shall rise And I have Joe As I have God I shall be a Joe for Joe Joe's remark: Picasso *chef kiss* ❝ Greetings from 2025
( posted on Saturday, May 3, 2025 @ 10:13 AM )
Hello self,
We are now in 2025. *DUn DUN DUNNNNNN* WTF????? How crazy is this? Just went through a mental break down haha. Fighting to be with the love of my love, I admit, I was bat shit insane, but aren't we all in 2025. Welp, one thing that hasn't changed is that, I am still a hopeless romantic. Joe, you're stuck with me forever. Everyone else will have to fight me, I will literally flying kick all you bitches. I am now 28 years old. Can we please take a moment to digest this information? That's like fucking 16 years from when I started blogging. I started blogging when I was 12, already with readers. Hello, Joe. Glad to see you still here. A quick update, I am now with the (kind of) weird shuffling kid that was in 6N class who I knew always had a crush on me. Yeah, we are living together in the same roof now, or 5 years. Yall, i dont even know how to begin to describe our love. All I can say it..... brazy. How universe works. Here, look at us! So cute.  He just came into the room to give me a kiss and asked me what I wanted from burger king. He instantly knew I wanted cheese sticks. This man kknows me inside and out. Theres literally no hiding from him. He sees right through me. fuck...... and now, he's trying to find our pet cat Mumu to accompany me in bed while he has a little fun with his boys upstairs. I just had a mental breakdown btw. Oh ya, in 2025, ppl kinda take mental health seriously now (thank fuck). No, you are not crazy for seeing a therapist. I just subscript to a package plan with my adult money. Anyway, here's a recap of how life has been:
Teenage life was complete blanked out. Sorry, blame the tramua. All I rmb was that I was a good kid though, stayed out of trouble. Obedient. Things turned south after uni. To be fucking honest, it was about time. I was a late late bloomer. Everyone else was rebellious when they were a teen. But, even when life was fucking fucking difficult, man oh man, the lessons I learnt. |
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